so dumb
ruin everything
couldn't i have just shut the fuck up
always opening my mouth
don't trust them
cause they'll hate you
they'll discover you're an asshole
a bad person
and you'll be all alone
you're so dumb
want to leave
to block myself out
fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck
i'm so dumb
want to die
like shut up
i don't care
like for real
what if i'm a bad person
then let me die
stop trying to compress me
try to make me as you wish
as you see fit
i don't care
how you see me fit
i don't even want to exist
stop telling me to make efforts
don't want to
want to be the worst person possible
thats who i am
maybe
that's what they don't want to accept
that if i really talked to them
they'd be disgusted
because i have literally no reason to be
so fucking bad
the fucking worst
can't compare to anyone
don't have a single trauma
people were there for me
was considered good
but i'm still the worst
just like that
feel like crying
like a full mental breakdown
ok so like
life is unfair
and we just have to deal with it
and there's nothing to do
expect "grow yourself"
like "revenge is not the solution"
"shouldn't be angry at life"
well i am
i am angry at life
and that's why i want to die
feel like that's an obvious conclusion
and solution
why should you tell me how to handle life
i'll handle it as i want
and if it's not honorable
to you
then fuck it
i hate myself
wanna die so badly
i'm so alone
i'm bothering everyone
can't even cry without being a bother