i think maybe
my insomnia is gonna drive me insane
i can't be awake 24h
i can't be conscious that long
i can't take it
time doesn't exist anymore
the day never ends
it's so long
i just want to sleep
to not be aware of time passing
it's so slow
too slow
it's too much time to think
to be bored
to hate myself
to worry
sleeping is the closest thing i have to dying
i just want to sleep forever
right now i just want to sleep
even for a few hours
i'm tired and not tired at the same time
my brain can't seem to shut down
it's not even like 'im doing anything
i'm not even thinking i think
just waiting
like always
waiting for time to pass by
it's easier to wait while sleeping
my eyes are heavy
but they can't seem to shut
everyone's asleep
nothing
no one to anchor me back in reality
in time
plus
every moment i'm awake
is another moment where i need to control
what i eat
when i'll eat
with who
how
it's easy to starve while sleeping
not so much when you're awake
with your stomach growling
and nothing else to do
except think of food
i'm tired
i want it to stop
it's not worth it
living is exhausting
want my brain to shut down
and my body to disappear