well
yolo
let's call him
welp
that wasn't so bad
i mean it was
but not that much
hope he's ok
that it didn't ruin his night
can't fucking sleep
i'm so tired
what the fuck
and i'm sooo hungry
damn
need to sleep it off
but i just want to binge
my eyes are so dry
but i'm perfectly awake
binge binge binge
do it
eat
eat the whole fucking bag
but i was doing so well
even saw the 42.7kg
don't want to take it back
but i can't sleep
don't know what else to do
well that was the worse fucking idea
i really am an idiot
i ate
so much
like it was disgusting
felt so ashamed
laying on the kitchen floor
stuffing my face like a pig
wasn't even that hungry
wasn't even good
felt like i ate everything in the cupboard
then i made myself a fucking meal
like what is wrong with me
it's gonna take me so many days
so many days of restricting
to compensate
it was a mistake
stupid
stupid
stupid
feel huge
like this is my worst state
my stomach is so big
so bloated
ate so fucking much
just because i can't sleep
i tried to resist
really did
but i failed
so i need to try again
i'm so fucking scared
what if that made me gain a kilo
or even more
fuck
really need to exercise
but i'm so lazy
from the seven deadly sins
i'd probably be sloth
hope i sleep until after tomorrow
but i'm so awake right now
so very aware of my stupidity
just want to sleep it off