damn
i really want to disappear right now
i'm feeling so out of space
like what am i doing here
fuck
why did i agree to come beforehand
i'm so fucking dumb
i could've guessed it would be like this
i feel like in the end
i don't really like anyone
in the sense that
i don't feel like anyone gets me
i always feel alone
even with people
i never find my place
somewhere where it's comfortable
comfortable to be myself maybe
or where i'm just accepted
without having to explain myself
where everything seems easy
i don't like being lonely
but i am
all the time
whether i'm alone or not
no
i would even say that
i feel the most lonely when i'm with others
that's when i see this gap
between us
i feel so far away
like whatever i try
i can't be there with them