it's like im stuck
with this huge secret
i'm gonna die
and i can't tell anyone
i can't
they'll either be hurt
by the psychological weight of knowing
or they'll try to stop me
and make everything even more difficult
even worse
i want to talk about it so bad
i feel alone with this secret
but that's the point of it
i can't tell anyone
i need to keep this to myself
and tell no one
it would only make things worse
i'm tired of making people around me cry
i feel like it's my fault
i know i've hurt them
and yet i don't feel anything
i don't care