i'm a fucking clown
i would laugh so hard at myself
i'll never be wanted
i know i'm not wanted
i'm not attractive
i don't seem nice
or funny
or light hearted
people don't go for me
i don't know what i expected
i shouldn't have expected anything
of course it wasn't me
i get it
it makes sense
i'm not jealous
this isn't about her
she deserves being wanted
she's amazing
in every way
and people see that
the problem is me
of course