i want to go back home to kill myself
and i need
to fucking stop
i had my fun
now that's enough
fucking stop
please
you said it would be the perfect time
i was supposed to do so much better
i need to do better
right now
not make it even worse
stop
stop
it's not that hard
focus
tomorrow
do fucking better
please
i'm scared you'll hate me
i'm scared you'll resent me if i kill myself
throwing out all of your help
all the things you've done for me
wasted on me
wasted on someone who didn't want it
didn't deserve it
you make me feel bad
i feel like shit
talking to you