you don't even realize
you do
you do have expectations
you do expect me to do better
be better
i hate it
people giving me their opinion
like they know anything
like they know how to make it better
make me better
makes me think that'll i never get better
like you want
you all tell me i have to change
that it has to come within me
i don't want to change
i want it to end
what is going on
why are you ignoring me
i don't understand
i know i suck
i know i'm not talkative
and i don't often start conversations
but i try
and when i do
i never feel like you actually care
i don't know
i feel like shit
nothing makes sense
i feel so left out
it's so confusing
at the same time it's what i wanted
a break from all of you
but i'm so scared you'll move on
without me
what if i come back
and you're all gone
and this fucking weight
fuck
i'm so mad
and upset
nothing is working out
it's not going as it was supposed to