no reason to feel like this
why
need a reason
if not i'm lying
can't accept reality
want to throw up
feeling sick
about everything
thinking about life makes me sick
everyone is so disgusting
hate them
can't stand it
don't deserve to live
i'm fucked up
want to disappear
hate myself
this is cringe
please don't read
feel embarrassed
is it a cry for help
maybe just a rant
but i don't want to think about it
i'm hungry
such a disappointment
want to tell
say it out loud
but i'm too scared
that they wouldn't understand
because it's stupid
i'm all alone with this
made it that way
deserve it
want to run away
maybe i could
would miss some of them though
want to be sick
to look sick
to be in critical condition
then they would believe me
respect my emptiness
i'm ashamed
of the way i think
and feel
they shouldn't have to deal with it
i'm an anomaly
i brung this onto myself