should write here more often
feel like the biggest failure ever
want to die so badly
used to be so good
last year went so well
everyone wanted me
had everything i wanted
and this year
even though i almost fucking died
trying to do my best at fucking henri iv
i get nothing
don't have anything anymore
it was the only thing i was good at
my grades
my academic results
now i'm just a failure
a disappointment that dropped out
everyone knows it
shit
it really feels like dying is the only solution
shit
made a mistake
now it's gonna scar
fuck fuck fuck
i'm so dumb
shit shit shit
are they gonna stay forever
did i just ruin my body
why am i such an idiot
fuck
i'm so dumb
jesus fucking christ
why am i like this
couldn't i just think?
now i'm gonna look disgusting forever
fuck
hate myself so bad
why am i so dumb
i'm dumb dumb dumb
for nothing
fuck
my skin was so smooth
why did i do that
could've just stopped at the cat scratches
now my thighs will forever be ugly
hated myself enough already
didn't have to make it worse
like an imbecile