can't keep up like this
like i just can't
this is too much
i'm tired
like really fucking tired
of everything
of everyone
of me
this is too much
don't know how people endure it
it's bullshit
fuck
feel sick
feel like my body is gonna give up on me
why is it so fragile
literally just took a lax and threw up a bit
shit
i regret everything i do
literally can't be happy huh
for just a mere second
without everything going to shit
the second i come to my senses
should throw up again
but it hurts like a bitch
wanted to cut but it's too much effort
only have myself
can only rely on myself
everything else is bullshit
liars
manipulators
good for nothing
damn
it feels like i have a fucking alien
in my fucking stomach
just kill me already
kinda want to disappear