wow
feel like shit
feel like i was ignoring it
like it was too good to be true haha
i'm so fucking lonely here
and nothing has changed
i just act like it's nothing
go day by day
actually i'm still surviving in a way
when i think about the long term
i go right back to panicking
nothing makes sense
enough sense to actually live
live a whole life
and if i'm not gonna live an entire life
why do i keep going
even for a couple months
a couple years maybe
it's almost funny
you guys are all fifty years old
and you act like drunk teenagers
the same that i have to take care of at parties
you guys think everything's funny
and i'm just outside
i don't belong