why the fuck did i gain so much weight
what the fuck
what is going on
sure i ate out a bit the last two days
but never a lot
and i counted every calorie
and it wasn't more than i usually eat
so why the fuck did i gain 500g
i'm so mad
so pissed
yesterday morning when i was heavier
i thought that maybe
i didn't evacuate all the water weight yet
or that the laxatives didn't fully work
but two days in a row?
i didn't eat much yesterday
i took as many laxatives as everyday
so what happened
is thirty not enough anymore?
should i up the dose?
but then i always have to ask them for money
why am i so much heavier
this is what i was talking about
the stress
now i hate myself even more