want to fuck it up
i'm scared
what if i can't handle it
what if i fall back
i can see myself on the edge
i feel weak
and fragile
it feels like at any moment
i'll back where i was a year ago
i want to fuck it up now
ruin any chances i have
so i don't take any risk
so i don't go out of my comfort zone
i want to stay in bed
under the covers
forever
it'll be too much