hi again
i'm back
i'm always back
i guess i come back less often
more spaced out
but i'm always back
yeah i'm not doing great
i shut down
i can't do it
i can't do anything
and i'm just
different
not there
it's hard to always accept it
i'm better at it now
i can take some distance
but it also comes back
and i found myself feeling like i never belong
i can't do it
i'm a child
an infant
i don't exist as an adult
i've never been an adult
what am i supposed to do
"get some experience"?
i don't know
i don't like change
trying things
taking chances
it's too scary
i can't
but i'm alone