damn
kinda forgot all i had to do
i'm fucked
not ready to start again
what the fuck am i doing
can't even work
what am i gonna do with myself
damn
just want to be pretty
today was good
but now i'm stressed
cause a day can only be good
if i didn't do anything
and that's not good for future me
so that means
the next days'll have to be shit
i'm scared
of my bad decisions
can't keep up with everything
and everyone
feel like it's to much
other people need me
and sometimes it's exhausting
but i need them to need me
because i won't exist if they don't
i'm not the only one feeling like shit
need to be there
for the ones who are there for me
why can't i even do that
i'm so selfish
and so self destructive
damn