fuck all of you
you don't give a single shit
you're lying fucks
just leave already
't act like you're going to be there
if you're never going to be
you wouldn't give a shit
want to fucking die
won't change much
if anything
for you
probably barely notice it
and i'll finally be dead so
win-win situation
i'm so fucking miserable
i'm sorry
i miss you
and i'm overthinking everything
feeling like you hate me
and i wouldn't blame you honestly
i'm a shitty daughter
like the fucking worst
maybe i've been gaslighted lol
but you're so loving
and i just always mess it up
and i'm so fucked
and self centered
and incapable of meeting your needs
i probably don't make you happy
so
i've decided that helium hood
is probably the nicest option
just need to buy a helium tank
and some kind of hose
if it ever comes to that
and if someone reads this
i want to be cremated
i don't want my body to stay
i want it burned
do whatever you want with the ashes
don't really care
just finished crying for three hours straight
feel so dramatic
don't want to be alive tomorrow
i'm tired
have no one to call
when literally everyone is here for me
why am i like this
really want to call my dad
but i'm so scared
want to disappear
so bad
everyone forgets about me
and i just vanish
want my mind to be erased
like i never existed